Sunday, July 19, 2009

Bad Juggling Act

Why do we (as a society) feel the need to do everything... all at the same time? Do we REALLY need to have something to do at every waking moment? Will we ever remember all these objectives and how hard we tried to make them a reality? Yeah probably not. So it's time to slow down.

I guess I've just had too much on my plate. Not that I can take anything off. I just add another plate.

My problem is that when I do this, something always fall off. Then it's too late to brush it off and start over. The 5 second rule doesn't apply here.
So what has fallen off you wonder? Let's see... (in no specific order) (to name a few)
my checkbook
my coupon binder
my relationships with family and friends
my candle business
my flowerbeds

Those are pretty hefty on a plate regardless but when they fall off everything gets way too off balance. I've slowly been able to fix a few things as much as I can at the moment. And of course I started with the easiest ones.

My candle business is a non-issue now. I didn't meet my minimums so I lost my downline. No big loss I wasn't planning on being that active in the Fall anyway. It's just really hard for me to ask someone, whose husbands may not have a job or one for much longer, to spend $20 on a candle just so I can make a few bucks. And as far as trying to get them to sign up and "only pay $?? to own their own business" is not fair either. Yes they may have better luck than I did but I'm not interested.

My flowerbeds suffered for a while with no rain but they are back in bloom and the weeds are minimal. It was quite embarrassing for a while. A little snip here and there did wonders!
My binder is organized and up to date as of yesterday. I cut over $40 off my receipt at Target yesterday! And the only non-food item was pull-ups for Lil B.

My checkbook, well that will have to be a work in progress. They won't like me pulling so tight on the reins but they'll have to get over it. I'll make it up to them for Christmas.

My family and friends... For those of you who read this, I'm sorry I've been so vacant recently. I honestly don't mean to be. Right now I just can't be everyone's everything. You know that J and the kids come first and those are the relationships I really have to worry about right now. I'm not purposefully avoiding anyone. I'm just not reaching out. I don't need a call or a pep talk. I just need to get reorganized and settled.

Now I can plaster on a smile with the best of them but I'd just rather not. I'm tired of crying at the drop of a hat just because someone asks me if I'm ok or if something is wrong. I have alot to do and not a whole lot of that I want to do.

Ever feel like that??


Just Being Me said...

Aww honey! I knew you were having a rough time! Thats why I've been giving you space! Sometimes outer issues don't help! I hope things continue to get better!! HUGS!!

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